Endings and Beginnings
06.18.09
music: Television
mood: Strange
Well, my grandmother passed away last week. It all happened so fast. It's still really hard to believe. At first, I don't think I really absorbed it. I was almost relieved that she no longer had to remain in a comatose state that she had been in for the entire week before her death.
I miss so many things about her. Just the little things, like the way she used to make "finger sandwiches" for me at the beach. I still don't believe it's really happened. I know it's just a part of life, these things happen, but that doesn't take the sadness away. It does, however, make me think about death a lot and the fact that one day it will happen to me.
Life in Norfolk otherwise is pretty good. I haven't really gotten to spend any time with Josh, even though we are in the same house, because of the chaos. My new job is hectic but it's really interesting and I'm working on a lot of exciting things. Powder and Bear are doing well together, although Bear is having trouble eating as much as he would normally. We have to feed him many times each day to make sure he gets enough food, because he gets tired of eating after just a few bites.
11:15 PM EST
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Graduation and Grandma
06.05.09
music: TV
mood: Sad
I graduated last week. One of my grandma's final goals was to make it, and she did. Then she was rushed to the hospital and has been there ever since. I talked to her on Monday and she sounded well. Much of the family was with her and she wasn't lonely or suffering. Yesterday her health started to really decline. She has a fever and a bad infection. They've got her on a lot of medicines so she's finally sleeping. We don't think she'll wake up again. I am glad that she is at least peaceful right now. I left work early yesterday and have been mostly at the hospital this whole time. I might return Sunday evening. Work is going well, just really busy and a little overwhelming. I do like Norfolk though. Anyway, I don't know how much time is left for my grandmother. This whole process has been so unreal. There are so many things I am going to miss about her. I just wish we had more time. I know my mom his having such a difficult time right now.
It's hard adjusting to work, especially with all this going on. I haven't had any free time or any time with Josh even though we are living together. Powder and Bear are doing okay, but Bear is having a hard time eating and Powder has really bad fleas. This weekend, while my mom and I are with my grandmother, my dad is taking care of Powder. The first thing she did was have a bad accident in the house and kill a rabbit. The rain is not helping, causing an abundance of mud everywhere. I just wish for things to calm down.
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Laura Lee:: I am vegan. I am tattooed. I love the earth. I believe in love regardless of gender or race. I will spend my life fighting oppression and spreading compassion. Sometimes my dogs are my favorite people in the world. My family has a second home on the big island of Hawaii, and that is where my heart is. I wish I could fly away...
